long week--lovingkindness

This week I am benefiting greatly from doing lovingkindness meditation. It is something that I have been in need of.  I have been having some serious roommate problems that have escalated so badly I am at the point that I feel I have lost my best friend and loathe going home.  I have been labeled as "selfish", "a poor excuse for a friend" and "a total moron" by him for reasons that are deep rooted in possessiveness and jealousy.  These words come out in anger and are intended to hurt me, and they do, more than I can even begin to explain in words on a blog... I have been so worn down and exhausted by this conflict that I had even come to believe his words may be right.  I cannot seem to make the situation any better the ways that I have attempted and so I have decided to take a step back.  I will take good care of myself, I will be strong, and most of all I will show lovingkindness to both myself and my roommate.  I do not want to be selfish and I strive to be the best friend that I can be, so I will reevaluate my reality and focus on doing my best.  I am hoping that I will be able to set aside all the pain and view this aspect of my life as a learning experience as opposed to a debilitating predicament.